first i want to thank all those who comforted me in school [you know who you are] and thru smses and i am thankful for having a wonderful form teacher that cares (:
the thought of me retaining scares the shit outta me!it's like a nightmare becoming reality?
i can say i did study and improve for many subjects but it's not enough to bring me up?i hope my previous terms would be of help and can pull me up.and i'll study really hard and do better next year.as i've promised AP.if i ever retain i'll work hard and show EVERYONE I CAN DO IT.
once again thank you (:
i pray tmr's chapel will make me happier again.i don't like the way i feel now.
i wish i'm able to turn the clock.and adjust the time and start life all over.

Lord,take control.i'm tired of clinging on to it myself and not letting go.tired of bottling everything up.one day i'm going to explode.when i do,i see you.[meaning i die and go heaven]
i always wonder what on earth am i here for.am i born a mistake?
tough i already know the answer i still doubt myself.
what happened to the prophecy of a BIG blue box of talents and gifts you have for me?is it still there waiting for me to go and open it?i need answers.i'm still a kid,that asks questions non stop.waiting to find answers along the way.
i guess they prophecy of me being a little girl with many many balloons and God taking them away is happening now?ALL those important to me arn't as important anymore.those i like/want seems to drift further and further away.i'm not tall enough to take them back since they're floating away so quickly.now all i hope and pray is that you give me back those [balloons] you took away from me.

will tmr be a better day?please say yes.
i need you.

say a thousand words,but all i want to hear you say is I LOVE YOU